October 20, 2014

no more sleepless nights, please

Last week was seriously terrible. Didn't sleep well, just rolled around in bed all night long, every night. When it's like this and I sometimes just stare into the dark ceiling above for what at least feels like hours and hours I can't help but think about mum and the fact that she is not here anymore. Sometimes I forget about it all and think to myself 'I have to call her tomorrow and see how she's doing', but then I realise why she wouldn't pick up the phone. I go through everything in my head. That weekend when her condition became worse and the following weeks of just waiting for what we knew would happen, sitting by the side of her bed in my old bedroom during those last days and that night when I knew it all had ended, with a phone call at 2:35 AM. The hurt is still beyond words.

Every morning when I have to get up after not sleeping is filled with anxiety. Thankfully it always passes after I have had breakfast and taken the train to work. But besides working I can't get anything else done. I haven't answered a single email even though I had managed to get a good routine going this last month. I can't even organize the mess on our hat shelf (which I also use for shoes because otherwise Sputnik eats the shoe laces) in the hallway that has been annoying me for months. All I do is play videogames, eat and fall asleep in front of the tv - apparently there's no problem falling asleep there. All I need is real sleep.

Thank you for all the comments on my previous entry, it is so nice reading about you. I still haven't finished reading them all.




Two medium format frames by Leo. Apologies for the smudged makeup and what looks like a dislocated shoulder.

October 7, 2014

something about ...

Since I haven't been using this space for the last year or so, except during the last month, I am so happy (and surprised!) that the amount of followers have increased even though there hasn't been much activity on my part. And, since there are so many new of you here now I thought I would just introduce myself really quick:



Hi! I'm Annette. As I'm writing this is I am twenty-five years old.



I live here, in a city on the southern west coast of Sweden. My apartment is located somewhere to the left (or outside the frame) in this photo.



I like this guy a lot. His name is Leo. He wears blue shirts and has a beard I like to run my fingers through.



I'm very fond of these two as well. Leia & Sputnik. They have been living with us for almost two years.



Monday to friday for the last three+ years I have been working as a web editor and photographer for an online store in Sweden, Minfot.se. We sell insoles that make your shoes more comfortable, cosy slippers and other stuff. And honestly, I couldn't ask for a better job.



When the weather allows it, I like to go on really long bike rides. This rusty old thing that I love dearly was a christmas gift from Leo's parents.



When I'm not working I often bake cookies. Or pies, as above. And then I eat it all.



Another thing I really like is breakfast. Mostly during the weekend when there's no rush, preferably combined with music. On weekdays I usually only have about five-ten minutes to eat breakfast (I never learn how to wake up early enough) in front of the news on tv. This morning I had soy yoghurt topped with banana, kiwi, mulberries and crisp bread with cream cheese. I almost had time to eat it all.

Besides this blog I have a portfolio that I haven't updated in forever, a print shop, an instagram account and a facebook profile.
Emails can be sent to info[at]annettepehrsson.se. I usually answer emails on saturdays and sundays.

In my previous post I asked you to tell me about your favorite blogs, and to reciprocate I will do the same.
A few that I really like and happily read everytime there's a new post is hejregina by Agnes, niotillfem by Sandra, vardagsbrus by Frida and the road is home by Nirrimi.

I would be so happy if some of you would like to tell me something about yourself, where you are from, what you do etc., or guide me to your own blog/instagram/whatever.
If you have any questions, feel free to ask.

September 29, 2014

bird cherry & plum blossoms

A diptych from april.

Lately I have been spending a little more time browsing new (to me) blogs for inspiration and to keep my mind occupied when I'm feeling restless. If you have any favorite places on the internetz or blogs you really really like - please share! I need new things to look at.

September 25, 2014

golden polaroid haze

Two polaroids from a little daytrip in June. We walked through a forest to find some (tiny) waterfalls and ended up on a hill underneath large pine trees and had cookies.

Btw, thank you ENDLESSLY for all the sweet emails you've sent me these last few weeks. Hopefully I will have some free time to write you back this weekend.


September 22, 2014

horses, fog & those so very quiet days

The only productive things I did yesterday: Running and scanning negatives.

There is something wrong with the shutter mechanism in my zenit-b now - half of most images comes out black. I shot my very last zenit-roll for a project with my friend Anna-Frida in April this year. We'll get to those later. So, now my favourite camera of all time just sits on a shelf in my bedroom. I remember buying it on ebay for £2 and I don't think I will ever be able to find one so cheap again.





September 14, 2014

a summary of spring & summer, part two


Swimming, icecream, a secret blueberry-spot, harvesting and eating vegetables from our garden, wind & horses, bikerides, post-work-fikas, sunset flowers,
chocolate bananas on the beach, kitten-cuddles on rainy days, wandering in the woods and breakfasts in bed. Everything through my iphone.











September 11, 2014

mum


It has been a month today. I still cannot believe that I will never see you again.

September 9, 2014

a summary of spring & summer, part one


Spring and summer months, through my iphone.